I’ve never really contemplated suicide.
I figure, if things were to get bad enough, I can always go back to being a ski bum, where my main concerns were the weather and who to ride with. (this comes from the rational, non-suicidal mind)
BUT I had a close friend suicide just after college. From the outside, it looked like she had everything going for her, but her inner experience was a warzone.
I can’t say much about what it was like in her world at that time. Nobody really knew but her.
Her choice, while it is possible that it relieved something for her, caused devastation in ways I doubt she could possibly see at the time. I, and no doubt countless others, still feel sad and wonder if we could have done something to help her.
….and would her challenges have worked themselves out over time…as they always seem to do.
I also think about the insane statistics of US soldier suicides, and the heartbreaking puzzle of men surviving the battlefield, but not surviving the battle.
Tim Ferriss just put out an honorable account of his first-person challenges with suicidal thoughts and shares practical skills in dealing with his own suicidal impulses in his early twenties.
I admire him for taking the risk and putting this out there.
I hope this can be a resource to anyone out there under the weight of life to a degree where such a terminal act even seems like an option.
Full read here: http://fourhourworkweek.com/2015/05/06/how-to-commit-suicide/